A recent letter to Ms Tormos.

Melanie:

I can understand the frustration you must feel is not pleasant. i empahise. i do.

you will not need to have me detained - i am not stalking anyone - i am interested in the knowledge surrounding the pregnancy you and i tested together: that came up positive. and the ramifications of having aborted that pregnancy or lost it prematurely are distracting to me.

i will drive to the house in camarillo, the studio in camarillo, the friends space at the university and the buildings on campus. this is absurd already.

i do not find it amusing that either 1) you are not communicating on purpose, 2) you are missing: in that then a report will need to be filed immediately 3) you are held hostage and unable to respond causing a report 4 ) you are deceased which will have caused a report - that is not the case. nor are you under arrest in your name.

iam through being tested on this topic. i wish to see the receipt of the procedure and speak with the doctor about how you are feeling after wards. Dr Edelstein will do.

iam not playing a game and i am not gong further tonight. sleep on it. tomorrow i search for you. i will find you too.

i love you and want to make certain only that you are no worse for the wear i caused in your life. i am sorry.

scott.

ps. i am publishing this as my post on the main site in a few moments and have carboned the group.

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i dunno playing around. on the same note - to the new acquaintences i met and the one specifically released from employ - the shoppe is going to me mine and you will get that job back if you wish it. bet on it.

i also called you first - now you have to use that number to let me know which direction to plan. i likethe idea of dialogues and learning - maybe something thematic from various cultures around the world showcased in teas and such. you like to travel. maybe you could find a couple ferraris for me along the way. ojai is changeing and it may be dull around for a while. lots of potlucks and planning sessions. thought the house is open now too - with permissions.

we have an one sided relationship - i keep asking to see her and i get a one sided wall of silence. so i s'pose mel is like kick rocks - in which case i can't do much can i?

nameste.

yes. you are full of grace and poise. that's an old one. thanks dana